Apologies lovelies.
I missed you though.
Anyway I have a different blog that's not ED that I'm okay with anyone knowing about and I guess I just kind of go through phases where I feel good and that's enough, and then I go through phases where I need an outlet where I can say anything and be [relatively] anonymous and it can be okay.
And that's why I still have this one.
Idk what made me want to post today. I was reviewing old journals and old posts and thinking about my binging and the trouble it's caused and at the same time feeling super triggered to just eat half a gallon of ice cream. Not kidding. Almost bought the mint marble fudge with the plan of just eating all of it.
And I don't really know why.
I'm anxious, yes. It's a test week - I have a final on Friday. I have a REALLY big test in 3 weeks - the second half of a national exam that's pretty significant for my future. And I'm just feeling really triggered to binge.
It's frankly kind of weird.
All I want is ice cream.
Ugh.
I mean look at this. So delicious.
Help anyone?
