Happy Monday!

So I reuploaded this blog in January, making claims I was back, and then I just didn't post at all.

Apologies lovelies.

I missed you though.

Anyway I have a different blog that's not ED that I'm okay with anyone knowing about and I guess I just kind of go through phases where I feel good and that's enough, and then I go through phases where I need an outlet where I can say anything and be [relatively] anonymous and it can be okay.

And that's why I still have this one.

Idk what made me want to post today. I was reviewing old journals and old posts and thinking about my binging and the trouble it's caused and at the same time feeling super triggered to just eat half a gallon of ice cream. Not kidding. Almost bought the mint marble fudge with the plan of just eating all of it.

And I don't really know why.

I'm anxious, yes. It's a test week - I have a final on Friday. I have a REALLY big test in 3 weeks - the second half of a national exam that's pretty significant for my future. And I'm just feeling really triggered to binge.

It's frankly kind of weird.

All I want is ice cream.

Ugh.

I mean look at this. So delicious.

Help anyone?

It's Back....!

So this is the "Welcome Back I reuploaded Hi I missed you!" Post. I deleted this blog after the last post (Feb 2011) when I switched to a more public one.

However, I'm still having a lot of eating disorder and binging struggles that I don't feel safe to talk about on my public blog, so I'm bring back Jam and Jabberwock. I'm looking forward to rejoining the community because I could really use the support.